Days 20 & 21: Visible results?

Moving in the right direction

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Yes! I feel like the first results are currently becoming more and more visible. My legs seem to slim up. However, my legs never really were fat in the first place. The majority of my fat lives in my belly area. According to my BF, my belly sticks out more (even when I suck it in). With my legs now slimming down I will look like Gru from ‘Despicable me’: Tiny legs, giant belly. My OBGYN made me fill out a form and was surprised by what I filled in and told me I looked skinnier 🙂 🙂 Then again, I am very tall and people are usually distracted by my legs and only see my belly area after they look twice.

But wait, there is more!

Christmas is around the corner and my writing gigs have been slow these days, I had to find a new job to get some money. You know the story; starving artist in a big city. Lucky me managed to land two jobs and I still have to decide which one I would like. Both are office-related. One is 4 to 6 week-gig. I’m kinda feeling that one more but I will try out the other on Friday and hopefully then be able to figure out which job I want.

Moving has been quite an easy task for me on Day 21 because I had many meetings and dates spread across the city. My pedometer showed more than 10,000 steps at midnight and after that it starts counting new again. I met with the boys and we had some beer and – OMG idk what is wrong with me – smoked a lot. Today will be a new trial run, I am sick and tired of smoking but in certain situations I simply cannot help myself but smoke.

Days 11 – 13

Sunshine, sickness, sugar and successes?

Hello my fellow bloggers/readers/aspiring thin people/friends,

Unfortunately, I have fallen sick and therefore couldn’t really post anything. Staying on track with my paper journal was a pain in the ass already and I realized just how much time I spent in front of screens so I decided that my blog would have to be paused for the moment. While we’re at it, I have to admit that I have been slacking a little while I was sick and I even fixed myself a cookie dough fix. Yes. Despite the incident. What can I say? I was craving and the book/method requires you to listen to your body and allow yourself whatever it is your body wants. Mine wanted cookie dough.

Did I follow every rule? If you combine the days and use one template of journal, then yes. If not, no. Like I said, tonight I ate more than I needed. Instead of laying on the couch and watching Brooklyn 99 all day long, I should have listened to the audio trance yesterday. Oh well. #noragrets

On Sunday I was lucky enough to get some good shots of the city in the fall. You are always more than welcome to visit my photoblog any time – even though I have been really lazy with it and really needs a facelift.

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Tomorrow is the first weigh-in and I am very anxious. I know I shouldn’t be but I am. The book says that it doesn’t matter whether or not you’ve already lost weight or not as long as you feel that way. I feel thinner and as though my body has become more firm but I am still anxious to step on that scale tomorrow.

Day 10

Rules followed: 5/8

The weather was gorgeous. I am big fall lover thus I had to be outside for the golden time and see nature’s most beautiful phase. Since my BF seems to be under a lot of stress lately, we decided not to use our phones (I broke the rule by taking pictures with it before popping out my DLSR) and instead search for serenity.

The BF chose a route to hike. It was bloody long. We got see the Löwenburg in Rhöndorf or let’s say we got to sit on ruins of a castle while we got to enjoy the most beautiful view ever – combined with beautiful weather. My weight issues were clearly presented to me on the way up as geriatric joggers passed me by while I couldn’t breathe and my heart was acting up. As a formerly thin person, I know how much easier moving around is once you drop a certain weight. I cannot wait to get there again.

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My activity tracker counted 22.993 steps until midnight. After our hike we went to Ikea to grab a bite and then walked through the entire thing without buying anything (very proud of myself). Once we got home we took quick showers and changed, then hopped on the train to meet our friends. I felt glorious. Being outside isn’t really on my mind anymore but there is nothing more relaxing than a walk through the woods.

I ate some candy, I ate real food. I enjoyed it all. For my late-night-snack after drinking, I decided to let everybody have a bite to try. Hanging out with hungry guys is a good way to drop weight because they take giant bites. I only ended up eating half of what I ordered and that was more than enough. I felt fine not eating that much. Actually, that might be the biggest change I am currently experiencing: I get by with lesser food. The down side: The BF eats up my left-overs although he himself is very unhappy with his weight and he wants to drop some weight as well.

Day 9

Rules followed: 6/8

YAY ME! I finally listened to the audio trance. I am so proud of myself. I would say that Day 9 has been the best day so far – and I am not even talking about just the rules. 6/8 is pretty good, of course, but I also had a wonderful day all together because a) the sun was out and the temperatures were a.m.a.z.i.n.g. and b) I met a really sweet girl and we had a great time hanging out (still looking for more friends) and c) got to talk to my BFF for hours on the phone and d) I moved around a lot which really boosted my energy. Just listening to the audio trance and thus the feeling of accomplishment was very satisfying. I felt like I could conquer anything. Just like the book demands, I was hungry and I felt like late-night-cake. We had some super rich cake at 11.30 pm and it didn’t even bother me. I ate slowly and left some cake on the plate but it sure was nice not having to worry about anything. The method gives you so much quality in life, I strongly recommend it anybody with weight issues.

I needed that boost. My mood had been down for the first 8 days of this journey.

Day 10 will also become very active. The BF and I will be hiking around all day – without cell phones. I cannot wait. We both look forward to getting out of the city and breathing some fresh air in the woods.

Day 8

Rules followed: 3/8

Today was a bad day foodwise and a good day activitywise. Day 7 required new goals for this week and I already managed to achieve one: Meet new people. I joined a Facebook group to meet up to play Badminton. Unfortunately, the BF threw out his back two nights ago so that he couldn’t attend. Instead, our neighbour Tobi came to the rescue and joined in. I had stated that I would bring another person along and the court rent was calculated based on my statement and we played doubles so there had to be an even number.

Badminton is one of my favourite sports and I am so glad I got to play again. My game was lit. Nobody knew I still had it in me. It was exhausting, I’ll admit that. My heart condition kicked in once, but that was ok. I am very happy I got to play again.

As far as my eating goes, I ate when I wasn’t hungry, I didn’t stop in time, I had candy all day and I have yet to listen to the audio trance since starting this journal. Tomorrow will be another day. I did the mirror technique really briefly, but at least I did it.

The cookie dough incident.

+++ Read the entire story including an exclusive statement from Susi L. only here on 30andskinny! +++

Cologne. On October 4th, 2017, writer Susi L. found herself bored and in the safety of her own home. While scrolling through Pinterest, she came across a post that would change her life. Based on former searches and interests, Pinterst suggested the ‘Cookie Dough Craving Fix For 1’. Upon clicking on said post, Susi discovered that she had all the ingredients but one in her home. She prepared the mix without the missing ingredient, placed the almost-ready mix in one of the cupboards so that her boyfriend would not find it once returning home from work and pretended like nothing had happened.

While Susi L. was about to walk to the grocery store in order to purchase said missing ingredient, her boyfriend asked her to drive him and their mutual friend to the movie theathre she agreed to do so. Once the men had left the car, she proceeded to drive to the next store with parking spots available. Sources say that Susi L. was seen wearing black sweatpants when she entered a local Aldi store in Cologne. An eye-witness told us that she had purchased  unsuspicious basic items such as bottled water, fruit and vegetables, oats, hummus and butter. Apart from wearing sweatpants and a track suit jacket, nothing seemed suspicious. The cashier told us that she even paid cash which she took out of an envelope that said ‘October 2017’. Her behaviour was described as that of a normal customer during later store hours. Another eye witness said that she had dark circles under her eyes and that she was very pale.

As she proceeded to load the purchases into the car, another car drove up to her and asked her about store hours and whether or not they had to pay for parking. After having parked the car, the driver approached L. one last time to ask if she herself had paid for the parking. L. declined, the man proceded and L. returned her shopping cart. The driver told us: ‘She seemed very tired and based on what I saw in her trunk, she really needs to clean out her car. There were clothes all over the trunk.’

In the car, Susi L. placed the butter on the passenger seat and turned on the seat warmer in order to soften the butter. As soon as she stepped into the kitchen she droped to bag of groceries and got out the almost-ready mix. She scooped up two tablespoons of the now-soft butter and added it to the mix. The regular spoon wouldn’t work so she had to rely on a technical device in order to create the perfect cookie dough.

L. ate the whole thing in two sessions. Upon the first bite, L. found the dough way too sweet but proceeded anyways. After watching her new-found favourite series ‘Catastrophe’, she decided to put one half of the dough into the freezer. Two episodes later, L. retrieved the second half to eat it in a second session.

As her boyfriend returned from home, she had already removed all evidence. To this day, L.’s boyfriend has no knowledge of the incident as he declined any comment. L. herself agreed to give us an exclusive statement:

Susi L.: ‘I am very ashamed of my actions. At the moment they might only hurt my teeth and my overall body fat percentage, but in the long run they might hurt my friends and family. There is no excuse for this behaviour. It’s time for me to clean up my act and change my lifestyle. Eating what was supposed to be a cookie dough fix for one person but turned out to be more than just one portion was simply wrong and I have to accept the fact that it wasn’t even that delicious and yet, I chose to eat the entire thing. It didn’t even satisfy me! I am disgusted by myself and in that night, I realized that I had hit rock bottom. Now it’s time for me to climb back up and climbing is always easier when you’re skinny so that is where 30andskinny comes into the picture. I promise to stick with Paul McKenna’s method and by the time I turn 30, I will be back at my original weight and back at the top.’